{"id":5243,"date":"2022-12-20T12:00:00","date_gmt":"2022-12-20T17:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/?p=5243"},"modified":"2022-12-20T13:38:56","modified_gmt":"2022-12-20T18:38:56","slug":"there-is-probably-a-spoon","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/","title":{"rendered":"THERE IS PROBABLY A SPOON"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em><strong>A Review of the Strange Emotional Reaction I Experienced While Failing to Review the Television Show \u20181899&#8242;<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sometime in November, my friend Rudy Johnson asked me to write him a review of the new Netflix series <i>1899<\/i>. I was hesitant, having never reviewed a TV show before, but Rudy seemed to think I was at least somewhat qualified to write about science fiction (my favorite of the fictions). I\u2019d loved the creators\u2019 previous series, DARK, and <i>1899<\/i>\u2019s logline could have been written specifically for me: a nautical, turn-of-the-century, mystery-sci-fi period piece where the characters all speak different languages. So I pushed through my anxiety<span id='easy-footnote-1-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-1-5243' title='Picture: I am on the couch, wondering whether this is still the couch. My stomach is a little too deep inside my body and I\u2019m touching my skin to confirm it&amp;#8217;s still holding my insides together. When I look out the window a film of visual static blankets the blue LA sky. My perception is warped, artificial, like the couch is the center of a livestream projected on my brain from some external force. I can see the distortions in the feed, the pixelation and faltering framerate. I think about checking my phone, one of the few things that grounds me in a situation like this. But I can&amp;#8217;t find it. I feel around for it. I can&amp;#8217;t find it. What&amp;#8217;s going on here? I stand up, hoping to find it. I can&amp;#8217;t find it. I can&amp;#8217;t\u2014'><sup>1<\/sup><\/a><\/span> and told Rudy I\u2019d absolutely write the thing. I didn\u2019t do it, but at the time I really was planning on it.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>My review was doomed before I even started writing. I thought the show was good and I didn&#8217;t have anything particularly illuminating to say about it.<span id='easy-footnote-2-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-2-5243' title='I liked the scene where the hot Spanish guy was really weird to the Danish guy.'><sup>2<\/sup><\/a><\/span> After finishing the season I scoured my sparse notes for something insightful about the plot or cast or production, but couldn\u2019t come up with anything worth opening a Word doc over. My glorious career as a bitingly eloquent TV critic was finished. Sorry Rudy.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>There was<i> something <\/i>I felt like writing about<i>, <\/i>though.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><b>(Major spoilers for <\/b><b><i>1899 <\/i><\/b><b>follow. If you care to watch the show, please don&#8217;t read on until you&#8217;ve finished it.)<\/b><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>About \u00be of the way through the first season of <i>1899 <\/i>it&#8217;s revealed that the entire story has been taking place in a virtual world. This is threaded in an interesting way, with several bizarre occurrences and impossible setting transitions slowly culminating in the unambiguous confirmation that, yes Emily Beecham, your cool boat is a computer program. Something came to my attention when this unfolded onscreen. The thrust of the story had changed, and my experience of it changed as well. I noticed myself slouching, sighing emphatically, unclenching my jaw. I noticed myself <i>physically relax<\/i>. It wasn\u2019t necessarily that the tension was gone from the show, but something about the new development felt familiar, a story I intimately recognized instead of something surprising and strange. That this incomprehensible world was actually entirely explainable through the magic of digital computing was soothing, not only as a viewer of a TV show, but on a deeper, personal level.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I was curious why.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>It occurred to me that we as a society are obsessed with the whole simulation idea. Even before the computer was unleashed from the academic backrooms of its birth, we were imagining ourselves entering and departing from artificial realities. Early examples in sci-fi include Daniel F. Galouye&#8217;s 1964 novel <i>Simulacron-3<\/i> and Phillip K. Dick&#8217;s <i>Time Out of Joint<\/i>, which came out in 1959\u2014we were imagining humans in virtual reality almost a decade before the computer mouse was invented! And the philosophical idea of our own reality being somehow illusory goes back much further. Early Buddhist scholars were conceptualizing reality as an &#8220;illusion&#8221; or &#8220;projection&#8221; as far back as the fifth century B.C.<span id='easy-footnote-3-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-3-5243' title='It\u2019s worth noting that our minds can naturally process the world this way sometimes. The phenomenon of &lt;i&gt;derealization &lt;\/i&gt;is difficult to describe, but the key feature is an overwhelming impression that the world has become distant, unreal, or false. If you&amp;#8217;ve ever experienced d\u00e9j\u00e0 vu or the lingering fog of jet lag, you have been subjected to some level of derealization. For me, it&amp;#8217;s one symptom of clinical anxiety, which was extremely disturbing when it started cropping up in my teens. It would sometimes come on so strong I\u2019d start getting paranoid\u2014Am I going crazy? Is nothing real? Does the world feel like this to everyone and they all decided not to clue me in?'><sup>3<\/sup><\/a><\/span> Similar concepts are preserved in texts from ancient China, Greece, and Mesoamerica.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>The more I thought about all this, the more a throughline seemed to take shape, along with some key questions: Have we always suspected, by and large as a species, that our world is fake? Why are we so invested in narratives centered on this idea? Why is it <i>comforting<\/i> on an almost autonomic level to think that life is but a dream, that what we experience is not true experience? Why do we crave derealization?<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Is it because it&#8217;s valid?<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>The most recent, formalized version of the &#8220;simulation hypothesis&#8221; was developed by a Swedish philosopher named Nick Bostrom. Bostrom&#8217;s idea can be summarized thusly: As technology progresses, the amount of computing power available grows exponentially, and it stands to reason that a civilization with sufficient computing power would want to simulate their past, to test scientific hypotheses or learn more about their ancestry. Assuming even one civilization amidst the vastness of the universe survived long enough to develop this capability, it is very likely that the large majority of conscious experience takes place within these simulations. Furthermore, Bostrom argues, with enough computing power, the simulated worlds could themselves create simulations (I\u2019d probably talk about how this seems to be the setup for future seasons of <i>1899<\/i>, if I was reviewing the show like I\u2019m supposed to).<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>This <a href=\"https:\/\/sciencewow.substack.com\/p\/hack-and-slash\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">idea<\/a> crops up <a href=\"https:\/\/youtu.be\/pmcrG7ZZKUc\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">frequently<\/a> in the <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=HA5YuwvJkpQ\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">world<\/a> of <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=4wMhXxZ1zNM\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">pop-science<\/a>. Some go so far as to claim that it&#8217;s a &#8220;statistical inevitability&#8221; or even a &#8220;certainty.\u201d Elon Musk is a vocal proponent of the theory. America&#8217;s favorite science popularizer, Neil DeGrasse Tyson, at one point threw out &#8220;better than 50-50 odds&#8221; that we&#8217;re currently living in a simulation (though he has since professed a <a href=\"https:\/\/youtu.be\/g2rJITW9viw\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">more nuanced viewpoint<\/a>). A recent writeup of the theory in <a href=\"https:\/\/www.scientificamerican.com\/article\/confirmed-we-live-in-a-simulation\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><i>Scientific American<\/i><\/a> finds Fouad Khan arguing, with tangible exuberance, that it&#8217;s &#8220;confirmed&#8221; we live in a simulation because the speed of light, being an absolute maximum limit without a clear physical explanation, represents a &#8220;hardware artifact&#8221; of the computer program producing our universe. He goes on to propose that consciousness\u2014the subjective awareness of our own existence and experiences\u2014must have come into existence for some reason, and the most likely reason is we have these conscious experiences for <i>someone else. <\/i>In short, we are a bunch of sentient first-person cameras in an epic visual novel, played by the creators of our simulation.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>These ideas are exciting. There&#8217;s a reason the Matrix franchise has made almost two billion dollars, to say nothing of the enormous volume and diversity of <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Simulated_reality_in_fiction\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">other works<\/a> about simulated realities. With all this percolating, I thought about my own experiences<span id='easy-footnote-4-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-4-5243' title='Thankfully, my \u201creality problem\u201d has subsided to something more merciful as I&amp;#8217;ve gotten older. Most things feel pretty real to me these days. Now I worry about things like feeding the cats and the sustainable harvest of Pacific bluefin tuna and whether anyone will listen to my new album instead of whether reality is fundamentally real. For the most part.'><sup>4<\/sup><\/a><\/span> with anxiety and derealization. Could it be\u2014I mean, is it plausible, is it sane, to believe\u2014that there might be something to this ancient, perennial, widely supported belief that <i>our<\/i> world is not <i>the<\/i> world? That maybe we humans have quietly figured out something fundamental about the true nature of reality which is rarely mentioned in polite conversation but permeates the collective consciousness? Could those moments of sitting on the couch paralyzed by the mounting unreality of it all have been glimpses of<i> truth <\/i>rather than<i> mental illness<\/i>? Has science fiction been feeding us facts all along?<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>It felt nice to let myself believe something like this for a while. To take stock of all the things I don&#8217;t understand about the universe\u2014the vastness and strangeness and apparent futility of it, the things that freak me out, that make me stress and dissociate and panic\u2014and suppose there&#8217;s a perfectly reasonable explanation for it all. If we live in a simulation, then we necessarily were simulated by someone, which means we have a creator. We have someone watching us or at least able to watch us, who cares about us or at least cared enough to give us life. It was at this point I realized I was no longer thinking about a fictional idea, or a scientific one. The theory that we live in a simulation is a <i>religious<\/i> theory. It is the newest iteration of the oldest argument. It is our latest, greatest attempt at proving the existence of God.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I understand a little better now why we love these narratives, why we&#8217;re telling ourselves the same story again and again, why there&#8217;s a deep, almost cosmic coziness to stories about simulated reality, however dystopian they might be. Life is painful. Even when our own lives are filled with pleasure and privilege, we live with the knowledge of widespread suffering, starvation, violence, cruelty, inequality, and loss, so much <i>loss<\/i> all over the world. Simulation theory offers convenient packaging.<span id='easy-footnote-5-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-5-5243' title='I\u2019m borrowing the term \u201cpackaging\u201d from my new Last Estate confederate &lt;a href=&quot;https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/the-abduction-of-bobs-big-boy\/&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot; rel=&quot;noopener&quot;&gt;Sabrina Small&lt;\/a&gt;\u2014when discussing this article she brought up the example of mystery candy where some pieces intentionally taste bad, and pointed out that it\u2019s the packaging that\u2019s reassuring, that \u201cif you just ate a disgusting jellybean without the preparation, it would be so much more menacing.\u201d'><sup>5<\/sup><\/a><\/span> This world is not the real world, but a veneer of a world created especially for us. It&#8217;s comforting to think there&#8217;s a definitive reason for our suffering\u2013even if the reason is some asshole programmer wrote the code that way. Oh you must be new, I mean yeah the syntax looks bad, but that\u2019s the only way we get through the debugger come runtime.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Unfortunately for comfort enjoyers, there are many criticisms of simulation theory. I was actually surprised to learn how unsupported it is among mainstream scientists, given the volume of articles in reputable publications saying things like &#8220;Physics can prove it!&#8221; and &#8220;We must never doubt Elon Musk again.&#8221; One of the main logical arguments against the idea comes from former true believer Dr. Tyson, who pointed out that if it is indeed possible for a civilization to gain the technological capability of simulating an entire universe&#8217;s worth of conscious experience, the universe they simulate would also produce a civilization that, in time, gains the same capability. The fact that we do <i>not <\/i>have anywhere near that kind of computing power means we&#8217;re either in the first &#8220;real&#8221; universe, or the most recent in a long ancestral line of simulations-within-simulations. That means, if simulation theory is true, we can exist in a grand total of two out of potentially infinite nodes of reality-space. This challenges the theory on its own grounds: why should our universe be so special?<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>The logical basis, criticisms, and ongoing debates over the theory go much deeper from here, and I think Rudy might have me keelhauled if I go into much more detail in what was supposed to be a review of a fun TV show, but suffice it to say there are compelling logical and statistical arguments that start to make the whole thing seem less likely than its evangelists would have you believe.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Probably the most damning indictment of the theory is that it\u2019s not a proper scientific theory at all, because it\u2019s what researchers call &#8220;unfalsifiable.&#8221; This means it&#8217;s impossible to prove wrong, or even test in a way that <i>could <\/i>possibly prove it wrong. I spoke with Dr. Joshua Tan, Assistant Professor of Astronomy and Physics at the City University of New York, and asked what your average theoretical physicist thinks about all this stuff. While he guessed there are &#8220;probably some physicists who think about it,&#8221; the theory is &#8220;essentially unused in any serious articles\u2026 The fundamental premise is that it would have no observable consequences, which makes it basically irrelevant for study.&#8221; In other words, because our universe would look exactly the same in a sufficiently comprehensive simulation as it would if the world is real, there&#8217;s no clear way to empirically test whether we&#8217;re dealing with one or the other. In theory there <i>could <\/i>be some signature, some artifact of source code execution that might become apparent to us, but so far, according to Dr. Tan, &#8220;to the extent that such a thing would have observable consequences, there is no evidence.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>And still we tell our stories. Including some pretty good ones like the television series <i>1899<\/i>, now streaming on Netflix.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Like most people, I would prefer it if life was meaningful. It&#8217;s incredibly distressing to reconcile the fact that we are richly intelligent, emotional, conscious beings with the fact that our centuries of scientific discovery indicate our existence is a happy<span id='easy-footnote-6-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-6-5243' title='Or unhappy. I don&amp;#8217;t know. I had a nice birthday, but now I\u2019m older.'><sup>6<\/sup><\/a><\/span> accident of biochemical reactions operating under arbitrary physical laws that came from nowhere. I would prefer there to be someone in charge. I would prefer this story to have an author. The grand narrative coming from naturalist and materialist hard science is not a story many of us are equipped to believe. Maybe that&#8217;s why science fiction is so often ready to plug its own holes with magic, with untested philosophy and religiosity. I mostly loved <i>1899<\/i>\u2014but it&#8217;s worth considering why we keep telling these stories and what exactly they do for us. Maybe they exist for a specific, very ancient and ubiquitous reason. Maybe they hint at some real answers, testable or otherwise, about fundamental secrets of our existence.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Or maybe, as Dr. Tan puts it: &#8220;They don&#8217;t really serve any purpose other than to excite the imagination.&#8221; Though he adds: &#8220;That&#8217;s not necessarily the worst thing.&#8221;<span id='easy-footnote-7-5243' class='easy-footnote-margin-adjust'><\/span><span class='easy-footnote'><a href='https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/there-is-probably-a-spoon\/#easy-footnote-bottom-7-5243' title='Scene: I am on the couch, wondering who&amp;#8217;s sitting on the couch. My stomach is a little too deep inside my body. I&amp;#8217;m looking for my phone and I can&amp;#8217;t find it. Something about the whole scene feels wrong, unreal, like this couch is only a model of my couch, rendered at an unstable 30fps on the dusty old monitor of my eyes. A chemical reaction in my brain called &amp;#8220;derealization&amp;#8221; is causing this, a psychosomatic symptom of clinical anxiety. And that&amp;#8217;s it, that&amp;#8217;s all it is, probably.'><sup>7<\/sup><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sometime in November, my friend Rudy Johnson asked me to write him a review of the new Netflix series 1899.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":26,"featured_media":5253,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"gallery","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5243","post","type-post","status-publish","format-gallery","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-articles","post_format-post-format-gallery"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5243","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/26"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5243"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5243\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5253"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5243"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5243"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beyondthelastestate.com\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5243"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}